It was just five years ago. I spent most of the morning glued to
the CNN broadcast of the live intrusion into Mt. Carmel Church. A friend from Florida who,
knowing why I was in Waco, didn't want me to miss the events then occurring had called me.
It was obvious that the government's professed plan to gas the Davidians for
forty-eight hours, and then, if all of the Davidians had not left the building, to
demolish it, was not to be observed. As the continuing intrusions in the building became
more severe, the credibility of the FBI claim was diminishing equally rapidly.
Just about noon, CNN coverage showed smoke coming out of the window to what was
once Sheila Martin's bedroom (second floor -- southwest corner). Within seconds, flames
could be seen coming from the same window, and in what seemed like fast motion, flames
began to spread. Renos Avraam climbed out onto the roof above the front door. You could
almost anticipate his fear, not from the fire, rather of the government's riflemen and
snipers, as he sat, reluctantly, on the roof before finally deciding to face his fate in
the hands of the enemy by jumping down, and following the instructions being bellowed at
him with loudspeakers. Walk up the driveway, he was told.
Having given up on any hope of the Davidians defeating the monster which had
taken control of their lives, Renos, almost casually, discarded the grenade he had
intended to destroy some enemy, along with I himself, in a last gesture of faith. Absolute
defeat, he realized, had come to the followers of David Koresh. Only spiritual faith was
left -- faith in the God who had given us America and its once great form of government. I
am sure that Renos' faith was sorely shaken as he heard the dying screams of women and
children being consumed by the flames he had just fled.
As I alternated between live television coverage of the events and walking to
the balcony of my motel room, at the New Road Inn, I went from belief, marked by weird
sense of distance, and the disbelief and sense of urgency as I saw the smoke rising into
the sky, less than ten miles away. The next forty minutes were spent in a sort of fantasy,
visiting the television to see if any other people were leaving the building -- even after
it was engulfed, entirely, in flame, to the other of standing on the balcony asking God to
intervene.
Before one o'clock, capitulation to the reality of the destruction that had
just taken place was made. In the next few hours my rage had increased to the point that I
feared even venturing outside, for fear that I might retaliate, not so peacefully, against
those who had succeeded in denying a peaceful resolution to the crisis.
I had tried to find a way to contact Rita Riddle. Rita had been 'detained' as a
material witness, at the Salvation Army Shelter. Except for one face to face meeting, our
communication had been limited to frequent daily conversations on the phone. Only calls
out from the shelter were allowed, but Rita had been calling every morning and afternoon
since we had first met, nearly a month before. I could not understand why I hadn't heard
from her.
At a little after four o'clock, Rita called. She explained that she had bee
re-charged with crimes. She then asked me to arrange to obtain, from the Salvation Army,
her belongings and to contact her sister in North Carolina, explain what had happened and
arrange to have Rita's property gotten to her sister. We also spoke of other things, but
through the conversation, neither the events of the day or any emotion at the occurrences
seemed to be evident in Rita's conversation. Finally, I asked, "Rita, have you been
able to watch television? She replied that she had.
"Are you upset over what has happened?"
"No, Gary, that was God's will."
We then discussed her daughter. Rita didn't know if Misty
had survived the fire, or not. Rita's only concern about what had happened at Mt. Carmel
was for her daughter. In time, I was to realize the significance of those six words.
* * * * *
Just two years prior, I had watched, helplessly, as the Branch Davidians had
they Church collapsed around them, and then been cremated by the ensuing flames. I was
staying with a friend in Orlando, Florida. My Land Surveying business had collapsed while
I had spent the previous two years traveling the country and speaking of my experiences in
Waco. The commitment to increase my efforts to restore proper government to the United
States, as a result of Rita Riddle's comment, had set in. Business, family, friends -- all
of these seemed to pale in importance to helping to educate as may people as possible to
the evils of the current government. In my travels I had heard so many say that we must do
something. Many of the uttered statements were far more drastic than what was soon to
occur, but said with a fervor that I took to be sincere.
I was on the phone and the person I was speaking with asked if I had heard that
a bomb had gone off in Oklahoma, killing hundreds. I shrugged the comment off -- having
spent the past two years realizing that words, not actions, were the mainstay of the
Patriot Community.
Later, as I watched the news, I had mixed feelings about what was coming out
over the press. The government had told us that the middle-easterners were bad people,
terrorists and every other manner of worthless. However, someone that the government and
press were suggesting to be middle-eastern had just ignited a bomb at the Murrah Federal
Building in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma City. Being a veteran, recognition of the tactical
value of the event become the subject of my contemplation of the events. If we are to
achieve resurrection of the Constitution, or even the Articles of Confederation, the
reality of the expense of the task must be put aside for the goal.
From this perspective, I could not condemn whoever had conducted the act. In
fact, it may have been one of those events in history that becomes the spark, which,
whether by accident or intent, ignites the move to change. It took me two days to complete
my first article, "Beirut, Waco or Oklahoma City?", on
the subject of the Oklahoma City Bombing. Little did I realize what criticism I had
subjected myself to when I placed the principle of the objective over the warm fuzziness
of presumed security.
Within weeks (and hundreds of hours of investigation), I had come to the
conclusion that Timothy McVeigh had fulfilled a promise that he had made, and as,
apparently, so many others had made, in the days since Waco. I was ashamed that the
Patriot Community would turn it's back on one who had realized that peaceful solution was
nothing more than acceptance of the current, and worse, conditions -- absolute submission.
Whether McVeigh's actions were known and/or planned by the government, there was little
doubt that McVeigh should be applauded rather than reviled. Instead, a controversy has
grown and division developed that would bring honor to the government agent who had
mastered the division -- if this division was so intended.
It appears that I stood nearly alone in my beliefs over those events, but I
have taken heart. Over the past five years, and over the past three years there a has been
an acceptance of the conditions as more and more come to the alarming reality of the
severity of the situation. Thousands have come around and begun to look at McVeigh more as
a hero than otherwise. Perhaps this movement can form itself into a viable entity. Perhaps
Rita was right -- Perhaps both events were God's will.
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